some nonsense

can’t be mad…
guess everything around is good enough
I should be satisfied by what I got
and cherish. Okay, if I can be this ideal
I must be lucky enough to be as now I am, but I am still blue for somehow
[quiet surface that has something big going on under that]
and I ain’t like how this is happening
…..
only if I can overcome this weird mentality problem of myself that is bothering me
or should I just surrender and to myself for this
stop struggling…
or whatever, things ain’t gonna get any better if I don’t brace up right…
right, how?
whatever!! Isn’t it time to sleep huh!!
what the hack am i still doing here….-_-